What I think a relationship should consist of:

I like you. You like me back. We think it would be nice to share our lives together. We want to be in each others vicinity for at least a couple years, because we're not fortune tellers, we can't know what will happen so far down the road, but right now, being with each other would be nice. And then all the complicated shit that no one ever seems to understand. I want to trust you. I want to think you'll do what you say you will, I want to think you'll be where you say you'll be. I want to have faith that you chose me for a reason and not on a whim because it 'seemed like a good idea at the time' with no follow through. I want you to understand that I am a human being, who albeit being flawed, hurts just like you do, bleeds the same shade of red. When you hurt me, I feel sad. When you make me laugh, I feel happy. I want to be reminded how much I like you when we're together, and I want to remember it even when we argue.

I want you to feel like you can talk to me even if we're in a fight, because you know I'll be there for you if you need me. I want you to know that even if we have a lot of problems, I want to be with you, or I wouldn't be. I want to work things out, and I want to trust that you'll tell me if you don't want to.

I think a relationship is two people who like each other and want to be happy with each other, who work on it when it needs to be worked on, who can be a little crazy sometimes, who can be jealous at times, and not be afraid that the other person is judging them. At the end of the day, I feel comforted knowing someone cares about me, even if they're not too happy with me at the time. At the end of the day, I like knowing that I like you. At the end of the day, I just want to hold your hand.

I don't think this is unreasonable. I don't think this is asking for too much. When I like someone, I want to be a better person because I believe they deserve the best that I can be and I need that. I need to feel like I can be who I am and you'll still like me, and I need to feel like it would be okay if I improved, too. I need to know that if I have a rough patch, you'll help right me again. I need to know that the relationship isn't a deal we made, a set of rules and a contract. I need you to tell me what you expect from me, and I hope they're realistic expectations, but it's okay if you expect great things, too, because you probably make me feel like I can do anything. I need you to understand that I'm malleable, but I can't change in a day. I need you to know that I think very little of myself, but that doesn't mean that I'm weak, it means that I think that I suck, but I know what a human deserves and if you don't give me the bare minimum, I'm going to throw a fit.

Going through my messages is fine. I wish you would trust me more, but I don't care if you find something, I'm not trying to hide anything. But whatever you do find, I wish you would ask me about it, because I have sound logic, and if you're willing to listen to why I do things, you'll learn about me really quick. You'll also learn what you dislike about me really quick, and together, I can become someone who understands what YOU need. My friends are important to me. If you have a problem with one of them, I'd like you to talk to me about it first, and I hope you would expect the same common courtesy from me. We're a team. Neither of us has to be alone.

This is a note to all the people I care about: I just want you to be happy. Even if it hurts me, or is at my expense, I just want you to be as happy as possible. Happiness is hard to come by. When you find it, you should cling to it or you'll lose it.